Crazy is as Crazy Does

Sometimes I read other blogs, besides my favorites at the right. I click on next blog, next blog and it really amazes me the lives of people. The lives of others, and the people after that. If anyone was able to see the background noise around me as I write a post you would really wonder - HOW THE F*CK can she keep a sentence straight? But then again, my distractions show through in my frequent misspellings and gramatical errors.

So I am getting gussied up for this event April 1st like it's the oscars. Even imported a red carpet to give the whole paparazzi feel to the huge amount of people I have invited.

I have a date this week. A real date. I sorta kinda don't wanna go - WHY? I don't know why. I'm scared. He is soo great, well seemingly anyway. You don't know people's true colors until your face to face. But I dunno. I like the beginnings. Always have. The when your too shy to show your entire self. When you hold back a little until they are hooked and then unleash the dragon. We have been talking for months now so this face to face meeting is way over do. He's a saint for hanging on this long. That's one thing about me. I like to try patience. I want one more week. Like that will make a difference. Like if by next week I will miraculous be smarter, thinner, prettier. More something. I just figure with next week I will have the entire Oscar glowing effect on to be able to WHOA him with - you know? This week - I don't feel so good. This week is stained. Messed up. Aint right. Next week will be better. Next week when Im wearing my pinstripe gouchos and my Victoria Secret black Symmetrical top, with my hair freshly done and my makeup freshly did. Everything I could do this week but I am too lazy to do.

So, I will be the corporate whore this Wednesday. Strolling in on the arm of my boss, and trying to book a date later that night for an amazing guy who deserves an amazing women. Lord knows what he will have on his hands with me as a date, but I am goin to try to fill a tall order.

Here's lookin at you kid.